"50" Blown Out Candles

All I could think of today was the number 50.

50 ways I could say I hate you,
50 ways I could say you're wrong,
50 ways I could say you don't deserve us,
50 ways I could say you let us down,
50 ways I could say you're a horrible father.

And to think I used to be daddy's little girl...

So here's to you today-- for you to realize all the wrong doings you made in life,
for the mistakes that will never be undone,
for the daughter you never had or ever will,

I hope on this day that is truly about you, is.

Because on this day I celebrate another year without a father,

Happy Birthday "Dad"

Born

It was a pleasant day, it was a happy day.

You woke up with the biggest smile on your face, and the best part you were wrapped around me so tightly I would of had to squirm my way out of your embrace.

I handed you the bag- and with each rip and tare, your smile widened- your mom couldn't believe how much I had spoiled you. I knew I went overboard but just seeing your reaction, well to me that was priceless.

We weren't even together at this point- but somehow we were. All you wanted was to be with me that day and night, and so it went...

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Today's a different story though. You're 24, and last year is long forgotten.

You'll drink with friends and share a laugh or two. Perhaps you'll take a girl home from work or from the local bar and wake up next to a strangers face.

Here I sit thinking of you on this day- and how happy we were last year. So here's to you, here's to what we were and weren't and what we are today.

Happy Birthday.